Why are women like this?

I used to be so nice, and now im bitter. im 38 and ive never been shown love by a woman, not even my own mother. i am rejected because i am shy, or ugly, and yet the women who reject me rent lookers either. they say they want to be treated well yet ignore guys like me who would treat them well. all they want is money, at least a hooker admits that. im so lonely. i know i sound like a horrible person but that is what happens to you when you are never loved, you dont love people back. all i want is one nice woman to like me, just one